What Now? -Part III
This will be my last installment for the "What Now" series. Then, I promise to get outside of myself and write my opinions about outside events. I just felt it necessary to express where I am coming from for both my and my reader's (all 5 of you!) benefit.
I have noticed a lessening of passion for things I used to care about. While I still have passion for my family, and had passion for teaching and music, other interests have fallen by the wayside. For example, I was really looking forward to the Braves opening day this Spring, but when the time arrived, I didn't really care if I watched or not. This has been going on for a few years. I used to feel like I had to watch the Falcons, or the Braves, or the Dawgs. The anticipation is still there, but it seems to wane the closer the event gets. It's like I lose interest. I can't really pinpoint why this is happening, but I miss the excitement. On the other hand, it has simplified my life somewhat- I no longer have to be near a TV or a radio when the game is on.
Anyway, I am hoping to reignite 2 of my passions that I seem to have lost: reading and game playing. I used to enjoy reading for hours on end: Tom Clancy novels, John Grisham, Sci-fi, etc. Now, I can't seem to maintain my attention span for longer than a chapter, maybe 2 if they are short ones. This may be a result of my spending most of my reading time in recent years on articles from magazines, the newspaper, and the internet, and just not having the time to really settle in for a good read. Summer was my reading time; I would read 5-10 novels between school letting out and band camp starting. But when I have tried to read novels recently, I get tired, or my mind wanders. I can't seem to get lost in a good book anymore. I'm hoping this will change with less stress in my life.
I also want to start playing games again, both board games and video games. Anyone who knows me and/or my family knows that we are game players. But I have games that I haven't played in years! Several of these were favorites of mine. And my son gave me a video game for Christmas that I have played maybe 3 times. I want to have time to explore some games fully, not just once every 6 months. To that end, I plan to start culling my board/card games. After we move, I plan to play every game at least once and decide whether to keep, sell, or donate. This could save a LOT of space, unless I end up keeping all of them...
Quite possibly, the loss of passion for my pursuits could be a combination of tiredness-either mental, physical, or both- and lack of time. Or maybe I'm finally growing up, and things that were important to me as a child or young adult just aren't anymore. If so, then I truly lament the loss of my youthful excitement and passion.
May your day and loved ones be blessed!
I have noticed a lessening of passion for things I used to care about. While I still have passion for my family, and had passion for teaching and music, other interests have fallen by the wayside. For example, I was really looking forward to the Braves opening day this Spring, but when the time arrived, I didn't really care if I watched or not. This has been going on for a few years. I used to feel like I had to watch the Falcons, or the Braves, or the Dawgs. The anticipation is still there, but it seems to wane the closer the event gets. It's like I lose interest. I can't really pinpoint why this is happening, but I miss the excitement. On the other hand, it has simplified my life somewhat- I no longer have to be near a TV or a radio when the game is on.
Anyway, I am hoping to reignite 2 of my passions that I seem to have lost: reading and game playing. I used to enjoy reading for hours on end: Tom Clancy novels, John Grisham, Sci-fi, etc. Now, I can't seem to maintain my attention span for longer than a chapter, maybe 2 if they are short ones. This may be a result of my spending most of my reading time in recent years on articles from magazines, the newspaper, and the internet, and just not having the time to really settle in for a good read. Summer was my reading time; I would read 5-10 novels between school letting out and band camp starting. But when I have tried to read novels recently, I get tired, or my mind wanders. I can't seem to get lost in a good book anymore. I'm hoping this will change with less stress in my life.
I also want to start playing games again, both board games and video games. Anyone who knows me and/or my family knows that we are game players. But I have games that I haven't played in years! Several of these were favorites of mine. And my son gave me a video game for Christmas that I have played maybe 3 times. I want to have time to explore some games fully, not just once every 6 months. To that end, I plan to start culling my board/card games. After we move, I plan to play every game at least once and decide whether to keep, sell, or donate. This could save a LOT of space, unless I end up keeping all of them...
Quite possibly, the loss of passion for my pursuits could be a combination of tiredness-either mental, physical, or both- and lack of time. Or maybe I'm finally growing up, and things that were important to me as a child or young adult just aren't anymore. If so, then I truly lament the loss of my youthful excitement and passion.
May your day and loved ones be blessed!
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